Day 29: Your goals for the next 30 days.
uh. I don’t really know. I guess I could try finishing and recording at least three songs, and spend more time on writing. school starts within the next 30 days, I think, so I gotta start it with a commitment and actually take effort in getting to know the new school and the way it works. I should also finally sing up for that gym membership I’ve been supposed to get since January.
Day 28: Something that you miss.
train trips. I was in a long-distance relationship for years so I could travel by train several times a month, but now it’s been ages since the last time I was on a train.
Day 27: A problem that you’ve had.
I’ve been too judgmental, and therefore been afraid of other people’s judging as well. I don’t think it’s that bad anymore, though.
Day 25: Someone who fascinates you and why.
uhh. uuhhhhh. idk. Tom Hiddleston? there’s so much in his eyes and on his face that only shows there, not in the words he speaks in interviews, although occasionally slipping out when he’s playing a character. I’m not sure why he fascinates me so much. he just does.
Day 24: Your favourite movie and what it’s about.
oohhh man you know I’ve got loads of favourite films - but if I had to name just one, I’d say it’s Scott Pilgrim vs The World.
it’s about Scott Pilgrim who lives in Canada and meets a girl called Ramona. Ramona has hair like this
and if you wanna date her, you have to defeat seven deadly exes - one of which is played by Chris Evans, who looks like this.
it’s a romantic comedy, and (even though I hate this figure of speech) it keeps you on the edge of your seat the whole way through. if you haven’t seen it I recommend you do so immediately. it’s based off a comic book and it really shows in the editing: throughout the whole film there’re these little sound effects etc written on the screen, and it works with the fast pace and the sense of humour of the movie.
idk what i’m rambling on about, just watch it.
Day 23: Give pictures of 5 famous guys you find attractive.
oh man now this is where the party begins
Day 22: How you’ve changed in the past two years.
I’m more mature now, I’ve grown and learned new stuff about myself. I don’t think I’m that negative anymore. also I’m way less social these days since I’ve lost touch with many of my friends I had when I was fifteen, but that’s okay, that stuff happens.
I’ve also grown as a writer, I think. I explore new things, though that doesn’t only apply to my writing.
Day 21: One of your favourite shows.
do i really have to choose just one? ooohh boy how ‘bout no and how ‘bout let’s cheat and name them all
i know i don’t blog about them equally but i do love them all equally - they all mean a lot to me, but in different ways
if i really had to choose just one i would maybe say scrubs even though i kinda love dw the most idk this is a complicated issue
Day 20: How important you think education is.
that completely depends on what you want to do with your life. if you want to become a doctor or something I assume it’s kind of really important, but other than that… it just totally depends. the most important things you’ll learn definitely aren’t the ones you learn in school books. I think being well-educated is a good thing, sure, but that doesn’t define your intelligence or how good of a human being you are.
you can do amazing things with your life even if you’ve never attended a single class in your life. it’s just… this is a stupid question.
Day 19: Disrespecting your parents.
am I supposed to like… disrespect them? or talk about disrespecting them? yeah, let’s go with that one.
growing up I fought a lot with my parents. all the way back from when I was a little kid to like a year ago or something we would fight all the time, especially my mum and I, and I never really felt any shame in disrespecting them to their face. (like I acknowledge that I was being really childish, but if I disrespected them I always strongly felt like I really had a reason for it and that they weren’t treating me fairly, so I’m not gonna apologize for sticking up to myself.)
I’m not a family person - like if a family member were to do something I find incredibly wrong, it wouldn’t mean squat to me that they’re family, so that’s why I always found it so easy to be rude to them. I never cared they were my parents: during a fight they were just people who were treating me wrong, so I never felt like sparing their feelings on account of me being their daughter.
these days we don’t fight that often, and I’ve realized I’ve really got so many reasons to respect them. sure they’ve made mistakes - some worse than others - but they’ve still always supported me. I know many families couldn’t have handled a child like me, but my parents have always made it clear to me that they love me and that they believe in me no matter what. I try to be more grateful to them these days, and if I feel the need to be disrespectful, I just try to see it as not respecting something they’ve done instead of not respecting them as a whole.
Day 16: Your views on mainstream music.
dumb question. good music is good music regardless of how popular it is. some mainstream music is total shit, but some is really good - just like any type of music in general.
Day 10: Discuss your first love and first kiss.
oh man. my first kiss was bad. I wasn’t really expecting it at all and I wasn’t really feeling it, but I just went along with it anyway. I was way too young, I had no idea what was going on.
my first love… ah I don’t even know. thinking of it now I feel like I’ve only ever romantically loved one guy, and he was just kind of a friend of mine. he found out how I felt but we were both too damn proud to bring it up in a conversation face to face, and because neither of us believe in facebook chatting the conversation never took place there either. (also he was dating at the time, so it just made it that much more difficult to talk about.) we haven’t really hung out since junior high ended, but we ended on friendly terms.
Day 11: Put your iTunes on shuffle and write the first ten songs that pop up.
oh man I love these
Day 08: A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
uhh. the only moment I can think of right now is when last friday we had the party, and a bit before we went to bed I went outside for a cigarette and it was like four AM, and I was seeing everything in a really weird way; like how everything was just a fragment of something bigger, and how everything linked together like in an 18th century painting. granted, I was a bit drunk, but it felt nice and I remember thinking that’s a moment I want to remember when I’m old.
Day 07: Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
I’m a gemini. I think that sometimes it fits my personality…? like I can talk a lot if I’m exited or passionate about something and I can also talk really really fast, but I don’t really think I’m equipped with extraordinarily great social skills. but geminis are also described as people who crave change and who get bored easily, and that definitely describes me. not that I’d get bored not doing anything, though - I just get bored of general settings and people in my life, and I need versatility to stop myself from getting anxious.
“Gemini is also linked with the element of air which represents the mental and social realms, the ability to formulate abstract ideas and to effectively interpret symbols, imagined concepts and communicative signals. — The sign is symbolized by ‘the twins’, which also presents duality: the ability to relate to opposing visions simultaneously, to possess dexterity and a talent for multi-tasking.”
I think that describes me pretty well, so in that way it fits me well.
